Why is it taking so long?

I had a dream that seemed to be taking forever to be fulfilled.  It was a big

vision to help people…yet there I sat frustrated waiting for something to happen. 

What was God doing?  Didn’t He care about my hopes and dreams? 

Spring Break was quickly approaching, I had a strong feeling that I should refrain from making any definite plans for the occasion.  Sure enough Spring Break came and that week was filled with clients.  I was thrilled at finally being used by God for a greater purpose.  

The next week, I resigned from my job of fifteen years to go into full time counseling.

Suffice it to say, things did not go as planned.  I had to stay on for several weeks before my replacement was hired.  Little did I know, this would be the first of many disappointments

I would experience waiting for my dreams to come to fruition.

After I left my job, I was prompted to do a writing project.  I dedicated the first few months to that and was very proud of my finished product.  I just knew God was going to bust doors open and bring the clients so that my future could unfold exactly how I had anticipated.

Much to my surprise, there were many broken places within me that needed healing.  I had all these grandiose ideas for what my new life would look like, only to be stuck at

home fighting with the very God I had left my 15-year career to serve.  Didn’t He understand I had an agenda?  Here I was, wasting away in a pool of self-pity, anger and

frustration when there were struggling people who needed my help.

Unfortunately, those months lasted longer than I care to admit.  On the morning of January 1, 2019, I finally surrendered to my God who had prompted me to resign eight months earlier.  As I examined myself, I felt completely hollow inside.  I looked into my future and saw nothing.  What had I become?  Where was I going?  I was broken and felt so hopeless. 

 I knew I had to do something so I finally agreed to surrender to Him.

Seeking His direction, I was led to ‘BE’… He wanted me to BE still and know HE was GOD. He had some deep healing to do within me so that I could BE who He called me to BE. It was a very painful but amazing process. He showed me visions of being a broken little girl that I had completely blocked from my memory. As He continued to heal me, I experienced His amazing love and provision. I learned how to trust Him. I learned that He only had

my best  interests in mind all along…as He patiently waited for me to surrender.

Once I quit fighting, life started to unfold in amazing ways. My dreams began to materialize and I was able to start helping people. Slowly but surely, amazing doors began to open.  God began to answer my prayers and bring the people He wanted me to help. 

Throughout all the pain and heartache, He prepared and refined me to be

a counselor, coach and change agent for Alive at Last Ministries.

If you have been going through  hard times, don't be discouraged...

God may be preparing you for something amazing. 

Whatever you do, don't give up before the miracle happens.